I love him so much! Please tell me how I can stop him from feeling negative emotional links to me?

I had almost the same thing growing up. I think most females have that one guy that you fight with all the time but cant live without. You need to move on. As hard as it seems and how you think you wont find that one person, you will. I had one guy i thought i wanted to marry and we dated for years but he was too scared of committment and getting married, he just wasnt ready for that step. when we broke up, i thought i was going to die. But then, i dated other people and ended up meeting my husband. You need to move on...and you will find that one guy who will make you happy.