Im being abused physically emotionally my human rights are violated i need anyway out of here (refuge)?

im 23 yrs old girl living in jordan and holding the jordanian pport . i have been abused in every way you can imagine i've been abused physically ive been hit several times and once till my hair ws pulled out of its place ive been abused verbally with the worst words ever ive been abused psychologically with threats of being burned by acid water and having a gun pointed to my head ..im 22 i cant leave the house but with mom or married sis i don't have internet i don't have a mobile but this that my friend got me and is hidden im not allowed to even sit alone at home all of this and a lot more is by my brothers and its all because im asking for a bit of my freedom my education was paused for 1 year and a half and nw im back i was separated from all the Friends they actually chose for me im not allowed to hold money im not allowed to work all of that happened because i fell in love with a girl and wanted to grow up and have my own life work go out alone ! be myself feel im living. my parents don't have control over my brothers and whatever my brothersdontt see good and acceptable for them which is almost everything they take severs action over like attack me with knives or the reasonable one of them believed that the anger and thoughts in my head are evil and performed anexorcismm over me where they burnt me in and had a strange man hit me i tried talking to them it ended with worse i tried suicideg my parents took me the first time to the hospital and when i got back they handed me over for my brother who shouted screamed but i was already on the edge he said hell burn me with acid water i said go ahead so he went and got this big knife to hit je with and my parents tried to protect me but i didn't even move a finger he said if i wanna do it i should try blood pressure pills so i went in and did my parents were scared but he stopped them sat down telling them its a relief if i died he'll get happy and make a party that's all because he found out i love someone and when he saw my ! parentcryingng he got up and let them take me i fought but he threw me on the floor and dragged me out to the car to the hospital ive been througalot ot i even tried running away in jordan because i dont have my pport and didn't't know where it was but now i do i do know where its hidden but dont have a penny to do anything and dont know where to go and what to do i tried runing away before but i ended up back home they said no matter where i go theyll get me back and kill me please i need help jordan cant help my brothers can pay somone and put my name on the borders not to ever leave jordan they got power in jordan that can get me back wherever i go in it please thy even told thyll py to gt me in a mental health hospital please help me get out im ready for anything to do anything please i just wanna get out ill give up my pport for another legal one ill support myself ill try anything i just want someone who holds my hand and gets me out of her please help me please unhcr refused to help me because im a jordanian in jordan and i cant go to the family help agency they know dirty people who get me back to them and they can kill me ... please any way out any help